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Fri, 22 Sep 2006 18:17:57 GMT

Oh, if I could be a dandelion!

::spins in circles, giggling::

I'm in an awfully silly mood today, and I don't know why. It's probably because I get to go to Winter Park and have coffee and sit and not think about troubles or people being mean and school and stresses and music and being an (un)famous opera singer. That's right. I've decided that that's what I want to be. I don't want to be known, I don't want to be famous... I just want to be able to sing roles. I think that I have a wonderful chance of not being famous, (hee!) although I don't know if I'll actually be able to sing the roles that I want. Hopefully, but there are so many good singers in the world... and I'm not even one of them. At least not yet.

I'm reading Dracula right now, and I've just gotten to the part where Lucy is falling ill. I feel so badly for her! The poor thing. It's awful, because I know how it ends and I don't want it to happen. Maybe I'll put the book in a corner and not finish it. It's a shame that it's required reading...

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 17:49:21 GMT

Today I missed choir because I got a really, really bad migraine. It was horrible. I went to the doctor's office, but it turned out that they were closed until one (lunch break), so I sat in the car and turned on the cool air conditioning and waited. It wasn't as good as a quiet dark room, but the air felt nice.

Though now I have to go back Wednesday to actually get a prescription. I take Imitrex normally, but I have such horrible side-affects from it. I have to find something else to take. I think that I'm just feeling so stressed lately, and that is what's causing everything. My migraines, my sleepwalking (which was better last night), and my lack of desire to do anything but lay down and rest and try to catch up on long lost sleep.

I am still terrified of sleepwalking outside and getting locked out. Moreover, the apartments aren't in the best location. I don't want to run into strange people who live nearby in my sleep!

I've always wondered if I sleepwalk with my eyes open or closed. I'm assuming open, since I do someewhat-complicated things in my sleep. That's so scary...the fact that I have my eyes open, but don't actually see... It's like I'm a corpse. ::shudders::

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 04:24:50 GMT

I'm thinking about resurrecting this journal, although I'm not sure what I would write that would be any different from christinedaae! Especially since I'm now accepting friends over there again. Apparently it's too difficult for me to turn people away. ::sighs:: But it's all right, because christinedaae wasn't the most private sort of journal anyway. It's rare that I do write down private thoughts online.

But anyway! I still like the idea of having a public journal, because it's fun? I don't know! Maybe I'll change again and decide to lock christinedaae! I have too many friends on there, afterall...and I could just disable comments, so that no one could ask.

Anyway... hello all! ::hugs and kisses all around!:: I don't know who's still on this list or who might see this, but I am going to return to lightpersephone! I'll make the time, I promise!

The most up to date news that I have is that I'm back at Stetson. Joy! It's rather difficult at the moment, but it'll be worth every minute in the end. At least, that's what I keep telling myself. I'm back in the music program, as a Voice Performance major.

Oh... and there are ants in my room! :(

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 07:26:56 GMT

::dances about::

:D! I love this new autosaved thing! It is just so nifty! But... I wonder how it works exactly. Does it mean that if this post gets messed up, I can make it re-appear somehow? ::ponders the mysteries of autosaving::

I don't have too much to say. My life has been...different, to say the least. I actually haven't felt very well to-day, so I've been laying down for the most of it. My stomach has been acting up. Oh! Louis is also running around like a mad-cat (it's times like these when I wonder if he's possessed). My poor little baby! ::huggles her Louis::

I read somewhere that people are bound to treat their children like their pets. I'm not sure if this is true, but I find it mildly disturbing. My children will be treated like little stuffed-animals, hee!

Thank you everyone who did my nohari/johari windows--it's much appreciated! If you have windows that you put up, link me here! I'll be glad to do them for you!

There was a friendship that was ruined over the windows, and while I find it greatly sad... I do believe that it was for the best. So I'm all right! :D

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 21:33:47 GMT

Nohari window
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=christinedaae

Johari window
http://kevan.org/johari?name=christinedaae

Everyone do my window thingies??

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 17:50:53 GMT

I should be doing work.

Where is my motivation???

=(

I have class in a half hour, a little more, and I'm sitting in the computer lab trying to print out copies of my poem. But of course I'm sitting on Livejournal instead. ::sigh:: I'm never going to get anything done!

In other news, I received a very scary Valentine yesterday. After Hunter left he found an envelope outside, and the card read: "To the most beautiful girl I've never met" and signed Caleb Lanier. I don't know if it was to my roommate or I, but it was scary nontheless! I don't know who Caleb Lanier is, and the fact that it appeared there in the middle of the night (well, midnight-ish) is a bit disconcerting. I was thinking that perhaps it could have been put at the wrong apartment, but then... we have windchimes, and a doormat. It's personalized, I think that if the person was mistaken then they would have realized.

I'm so curious though, so I think that I'm going to ask my complex after the name. If Caleb lives there, they should know!

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 21:56:31 GMT

Eeeee!

I haven't been this happy in a long time. It feels so nice! :D

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 17:02:41 GMT

I'm alive! I'm just a bit... worn-out. A lot has been taking my attention lately, and alas, I don't have time to talk about it right here. Let's just use quotes to sum up my week:

"I...don't...know!"

"You are NOT a prize to be won!"

O.O is what THAT earns! I'm unable to say more, or I'd have to lock this journal. And I don't want to do that, so there is your ambiguity for today!

Despite my confusion, all is well, and I'm a bit distressed at the colder weather--though at least it lets me bring out my pretty sweaters. I'm very sad that one of the rose buttons broke of my pink sweater, though. ::pouts::

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 22:16:51 GMT

I've discovered a new meaning of life! (Besides the forty-two cupcakes--forty now, since someone ate two, so the meaning of life has diminished. Woe!)

The new meaning of life belongs with gothic_mansion! It is very fun! We already have members, even though we only opened last night. We even have a raven! ::hops!::

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 06:51:49 GMT

Eek! Tomorrow I have to sing solos in front of people at Mass. I'm so afraid, I don't even like thinking about it. I mean, I first saw the music last Wednesday, which doesn't give me much time to prepare. I'm going to look it over myself tomorrow before I have to be at the church, but that still doesn't give me much time!

Oh! I bought some My Little Ponies on ebay today. I know, I just couldn't help it! Don't make fun of me! =( I think that I want to start collecting them again. They're just so cute... I don't care if it makes me look as though I'm five. I still have so many of my old ones, so I wouldn't be starting from scratch. Hmm. ::ponders::

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 06:10:25 GMT

...I want to be a virgin for-always.

::nods::

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 06:45:27 GMT

::sigh::

Well, today I don't feel very well. Tired. Lazy. I ought to be doing homework, but I'm not. The horrible thing is that I know I should be and yet I'm not. I'm going to pay for this, I know it, and yet I am unable to do anything about it. I just don't want to face my school tomorrow, I don't want any of it to exist.

I didn't used to be this way, I don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes I just want to up and move away forever and live in solitude, maybe bring a few select people with me (I won't name those here, some people may be offended), but besides that...never have daily obligations. The real world can wait for me forever, I don't care. I don't want to be part of it anyway.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 04:39:23 GMT

Omigosh there are strange noises outside and I'm alone in the apartment and I'm scared because Louis is freaking out and I don't know what's going on and should I go outside and what should I do I'm scared!!!!

EDIT: It stopped! Thank goodness!

Oh! I have a second job now, it's singing at a Catholic church. In the choir. :D I'm so excited about it!!

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 06:15:11 GMT

I do not know what I think about some things...

Mary is thinking about getting another cat, which will be fun! :D Aww, Louis will have company. She might name his Lestat, just 'cause. It'd be rather fitting! And no, Mary, we are not getting a parrot named Claudia. Birds are a bad omen, I hate them! If I ever use birds in a story, something bad is going to happen. ::nods solemnly::

Woe! I'm hungry, and yet there is nothing to eat here at all. I've ransacked the fridge time and time again in the hopes that something will appear (magically), and that reminds me of my enneagram type. "They look for magical solutions"--hah! How well does that prove things? Yes, the cake will simply appear!!

=(

I don't really want cake, though. Well. I'd settle for cake at this point. Let them eat cake! Only not. Everyone except Christine. Sad! Woe! ::wastes away::

/dramatic post.

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 16:40:31 GMT

Who ought to be studying for a quiz? ::waves arms around as though it isn't already obvious::

I'm wearing my hair in pig-tails today. I feel like a little girl. I only wish that I could put ribbons in it and not be stared at. Honestly, I wish I could be five and wear ribbons again. If I ever have a daughter, I want to put her in ribbons.

...Maybe I'll wear them anyway. :p!

I need to go studyyy! But! I'm unable to motivate myself. What's wrong with me?? Why can I not be inspired by school, instead of disgusted by it? I'm so tired of it all. It just irks me. The work, the aggravation, the grades... Why can't we just have a passing or failing grade? That would make everything oh-so-much easier. Though I suppose they have to have it like this...school has to be hard, or everyone would have a degree.

The Livejournal community has gotten so small all of a sudden.

Does anyone know what's going on with those hackers?

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 00:32:09 GMT

I feel like I'm ALWAYS hungry lately.

I worked today and had this horrible craving for cinnabons, which was strange. I don't even like cinnabons!! So, alas, the cinnabons were not meant to be. I settled for a chocolate-chip cookie, and then couldn't finish it because it was so rich. So the cookie was rejected. =(

Today I sent christineadaae text messages!! :D! It was fun. I like sending text messages. They're very pointless, though, so just pray that you're not a victim to my text-attacks, as I call them.

I ought to do my homework, but I feel so overwhelmed and behind with school, and it isn't even February yet. I've just gotten off to a really rocky start, and I'm not sure how to get back into everything. I missed some class yesterday because I was sick. It seems as though if you miss one class you're all of a sudden really behind. Not only is that stressful, but I really can not afford to do badly. I mean, I suppose I could, but I just want to get school out of the way and move on. I'm so tired of it!!

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 22:07:55 GMT

I'm a little loopy because the doctor prescribed me vicodin for my sore throat. I feel so out of it!! Ahh!

My cell phone ring sounds like someone knocking...and it always scares me when I first hear it. I'm not used to it yet.

It's taking such an effort to type correctly. I think that I'm going to go lay down...

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 09:42:29 GMT

I'm watching Congo. It's such a weird movie... Mary (my roommate) left because she doesn't like animal movies. And I confess... I don't like them much either. Especially if they're sad or particularly moving. Like Homeward Bound!! That movie just depresses me! =( Especially when Shadow gets hurt. That's the worst part. I've always had a soft spot for the strong hero, and he was always the really nice, fair, justice-driven one. I think that's a personality that I'm really attracted to. Even in dogs!

Hee. But yes, Congo is actually kind of a scary movie. I should go to bed soon, but I took a nap earlier today so it might not be possible for a while...

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 17:09:39 GMT

I bought my books today! Only...the bookstore ran out of large bags so they gave me about five teeny-tiny ones. It was funny, albeit obnoxious, but I did manage to get to the car without dropping them everywhere. A good thing, considering that it's me.

I also realized that I bought folders that I don't really need. They're the fancy ones with the logo, but... I don't really need fancy folders, and now I feel superficial. I should have bought the $1 folders instead. It isn't as though I have money to burn. Even with the loan money in my account, I can't afford to spend any of it on useless things.

That reminds me, though...after class today I have to go buy a phone. This is going to be annoying. Even though I have a plan, I don't think that this means that I can buy a phone with a reduced price. So I have to pay full price, which is very expensive. I could just get the cheapest phone, but that feels so... I don't know. If I'm going to get a phone, I want to get a reliable one. Maybe they'll take pity on me since I've had such bad luck. Or maybe I've lucked out and have insurance on my phone!! I don't think so, though.

Class soon! Must go!

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 03:56:56 GMT

I should do my homework, but I don't want to.

Make me do it!! ::sigh:: I'll surely not able to do all of it tomorrow in between classes, even with my two hour break. Oh, how glad I am that it is friday. There is so much that I have to do tomorrow, though, in between my four classes. I need to...

Write a poem. (This ought to be interesting...)
Write a "journal entry" for a class. I'll just do that tonight, I think. In response to one of the stories I had to read for class. The Yellow Wallpaper or somesuch! I do like that story. I notice something new in the story every time that I read it. I wish I could write like that...with little surprises in my writing...

Today has been very stressful, but I feel a little better about things, I think. I'm watching this really depressing movie on Lifetime, though! Lifetime is so depressing! It does make me feel as though my own issues couldn't possibly be as bad as the ones in the movie...

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 01:26:32 GMT

I went to my speech class today and became intimidated hearing about the speeches that we had to give. I paired up with this girl who was in Zeta, and she seemed nice. It still doesn't make me want to go back, though. I just don't have the time or the energy to devote to a sorority right now. As much as I miss the company, I don't think that I can do it.

Aww Louis looks so cute right now! Last night I went into a chatroom with a bunch of people who are doing the Leroux Recording Project and we rehearsed the first chapter. It went okay, I guess. I'm Sorelli! I have a few lines, but mostly she has to sound firm and smart, even though the book states that she's stupid. So it's a little contradictory.

People don't seem very considerate at my school. At all... The cars like to go when the light is red and people are crossing! They even honked at students today when they were obeying the "WALK" sign! I'm really afraid of seeing someone get hit by a car right in front of me...

Hopefully not! :D

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 22:22:34 GMT

My first entry in a public journal! ::waves:: This feels strange.

I'm not sure what will be written in here, but if you already have christinedaae friended, there really isn't a point to friending this one. I mean, you CAN, but there won't be any extra information here. I don't think... I haven't really decided.

As for an introduction...

Call me Christine.

I am twenty years old, an aspiring singer and writer. I love Lifetime and my kitten. There isn't much to be said about me... I have a pink ipod. I love pretty victorian nightgowns, even though I usually wear pajama pants to be more practical. However, I'm rarely practical.

This will cover the rough edges of my life. The details are reserved for my locked journal...and the REAL dirt is in my private journal, but this is the third best thing, I suppose? I will try to keep it as interesting as possible.

This entry must be cut short, however... I have to pick up my charm bracelet from the mall and I haven't even gotten dressed yet! I am so lazy today...

~Christine