She ([info]lightpersephone) wrote,
@ 2006-01-27 11:37:00
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Who ought to be studying for a quiz? ::waves arms around as though it isn't already obvious::

I'm wearing my hair in pig-tails today. I feel like a little girl. I only wish that I could put ribbons in it and not be stared at. Honestly, I wish I could be five and wear ribbons again. If I ever have a daughter, I want to put her in ribbons.

...Maybe I'll wear them anyway. :p!

I need to go studyyy! But! I'm unable to motivate myself. What's wrong with me?? Why can I not be inspired by school, instead of disgusted by it? I'm so tired of it all. It just irks me. The work, the aggravation, the grades... Why can't we just have a passing or failing grade? That would make everything oh-so-much easier. Though I suppose they have to have it like this...school has to be hard, or everyone would have a degree.

The Livejournal community has gotten so small all of a sudden.

Does anyone know what's going on with those hackers?

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[info]daishoukanshi
2006-01-27 07:15 pm UTC (link)
Awesome on the pig-tails! My hair is a tad bit short for that, however. Take pictures!

As far as school goes...

I understand 100%. I'm really sick and tired of school myself. But I'm scared you'll end up like I did last semester, and last semester...

It was a daily routine. I didn't want to wake up. Or do anything. I liked seeing my friends, but I didn't have the motivation to do much other than talk to them online over AIM or MSN. As much as I knew I needed a job in the future as well as that my hard work would pay off, etc, it wasn't enough. Knowing that I would regret not studying wasn't enough. Doing poorly in classes wasn't enough. I just sat there and angsted. Why couldn't I move? Why couldn't I motivate myself to move? I cried so much over the fact that I couldn't even make myself care. I knew on some level I wanted, so desperately, to care, but... I couldn't do it.

This slump got worse and worse each other. Only this semester do I have a drive. Probably because I failed for the first time last semester. My luck of somehow being lazy and not studying ran out. But it's not hard anymore, and I actually am doing well.

I wish I could help.

You can message me anytime if you want to vent, btw. School = teh suck.

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[info]lightpersephone
2006-01-27 10:01 pm UTC (link)
I don't have a digital camera... just a phone camera. :D

I hope that I get myself back in line. It's so difficult for me to, though. I just have no motivation whatsoever. I don't want to do badly, but it's so difficult. I need my student loans, too, so I have to stay in school.

Thanks! I will. :D

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[info]daishoukanshi
2006-01-27 11:11 pm UTC (link)
It's hard. I remained in the same slump for about three years. I just barely saved myself, though it took seriously failing two classes to do it. I guess my only motivation is getting it over with, as horrible as that sounds. Though I am absolutely terrified of the real world, but we've discussed that. :)

I used to be a creative writing major... until I realized that it wouldn't get me anywhere in life, and that was a depressing realization. I also didn't like that, being a creative writing major, being told what to write and how (plot wise) to do it. Um, no. I would like to write my novel, not yours, please don't kill my creativity- you already stole my soul, my money, and my drive to do well academically. Hence I left the major. X.x

You might find this amusing: at Western Michigan University reciently a girl who was supposed to win an award for creative writing (as well as a scholarship) just got busted for plagerism off of Harry Potter fanfiction. All she did was change the name and tweaked the situation to be more "realisitic" and she had done this to numerous fanfics. I was shocked... and amused.

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[info]lightpersephone
2006-01-28 02:55 am UTC (link)
I'm sorry that that happened. And yes, so am I. My only motivation is just getting back home where I can close the door and pretend that there's nothing outside. :D

That's what my major is. I've already come to terms with the fact that no matter what I major in, I'm not going to make a lot (if any) money. But I don't want to be trapped doing something that I don't like, so I guess I'd rather dream big and become a nomad!

Oh wow... that's intense! I'm always worried about accidentally doing that. Sometimes you take a story into your subconcious and plagarize without realizing or meaning to. Not that that's any excuse, but you know... :D

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[info]thenewmargarita
2006-01-27 07:32 pm UTC (link)
I haven't heard anything new about the hackers, thankfully. I think? I hope this means that they've either caught them or figured out a way to make sure we don't get hacked.

I have the same problem with school. ::points up:: That happened to me, too (though I think you know that already?) - except now I'm out of school and working a meaningless desk job until I find it in my heart to want to go back. I always wanted to be one of those people that loved college...but I just didn't like it. At all. I didn't like the social life, I didn't like the school, I didn't like my professors or my work or anything and I just ran away from it. Now I keep thinking that I want to be an English/Writing major, but...I just don't know anymore.

Anyway! Yay pigtails! That reminds me, I need a haircut.

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[info]lightpersephone
2006-01-27 10:02 pm UTC (link)
Good! I was all freaked out about that, especially since my username has no extra letters or numbers, I didn't want someone to target it.

I remember. I think I might end up joining the two of you, because I'm just so sick of everything... I feel the exact same way towards everything (except my work, besides the recent incident I actually rather like my work). I'm an English/Creative Writing major though, and that's the only part about it that I like. So if you decide to do that, we could try to help each other through it!

Yay pigtails! Oh no! Just a trim, right?? ::luffs your hair::

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